I'm back!

It's been over 3 years since my last posting!
Why did I stip writing this blog? How have I been? The Pandemic killed me??

I was depressed half of the year of 2019. (You can see through my last postings..)
But I was getting better as trying many things like learning, getting a job, quitting, and getting another job, exercising, and dating blah blah..

In the year of 2020, my crush started contacting me. And we kept in touch with each other through Snapchat.
I was so happy at that time. I think his contact motivated in many aspects of my life. 
My life got fulfilled in many ways. 
The Pandemic didn't actually affect my life. I was doing many things as there was no such thing. 

At the same time, my emotion swung by him. I was sad when he didn't reply me back and ignore my message.
I tried to defend him by myself, and pretend I was okay.

I became a freelancer. 
My blog has been boomed because I posted many things like travelling, reading, and some SNS marketing activities. 
My expectation about him got bigger.
And I decided to go to Seattle to see him. 
But I already knew in the deep down he was just playing with me because of quarantine.

​I finally went back to Seattle last year, which is July 2022, and spent three months. 
Everything in Seattle looked same. I met old friends, and made new friends as well.
I was happy, and sad and anxious at the same time.

I met my crush. 
We hung out. He even took me Port Townsend. 

Finally, he ignored me in the end. Maybe because I didn't do what he wanted the most. Or.. maybe my looks got old and he disappointed me..😅

My heart got broken again. 
But I made sure that my decision to go to Seattle and meet him was right.
I didn't want to waste my time anymore. I wanted to see what is true.

I don't know if my self-confidence got lost through this failure.
I don't know if I got self-conscious well through this failure.
I have been very humble since then. I just let everything happen and accepted. 

Everything is going well now.
I met a guy who is reliable and respectful.
I got a new job. I recently went to Barcelona for a business trip. 
My blog has been getting big. I have traveled around Korea, and posted about it. 
I have been keeping my relationship well with old friends. 
I'm focusing on improving my looks like skin, and fashion style.

My goal is to get married and have family, and move to live America. 
Dreams always come true!✌️
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​I'll keep writing this blog again.
My blog shows my life journey. And I know this blog will be not only for myself but for my future family too. 

Actually, this restart also was motivated by my ex-crush. 
I suddenly missed him yesterday. so weird..
He still motivates me in the unusual way. 
I'm not heart broken anymore. 
I still love him, and thank him. 
He meant so many things to my life. He made me change. He softens my rigid nature.
If I didn't meet him, I would miss many things of life because of my small-mindedness.
I still and forever appreciate him.

With respect of him, I've decided to keep recording my life again.😊
Thank you, Anthony.
Always hope you are doing well.
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